10.30.2005
noone told me about this
what started out as 15-some people gathering on sunday nights to pray has turned into a interfellowship thing.
so...
tonight....
i think i'm leading prayer meeting for freshmen from at least 5 fellowships.
.... God, where are You leading???
feeling all sorts of inadequacy and nervousness and wanting someone else to step up for once... i hope You know what you're doing?
--edit
gaah it's not even only freshmen! now it's people from 6 fellowships in the community center with upperclassmen too... God, why'd that email have to be sent out without us knowing about it? Why me?? don't You know how messed up i am? don't You know that i'm not nearly enough ready to lead something this big? i've only been at this school for two months.... sigh... oh Daddy.
so...
tonight....
i think i'm leading prayer meeting for freshmen from at least 5 fellowships.
.... God, where are You leading???
feeling all sorts of inadequacy and nervousness and wanting someone else to step up for once... i hope You know what you're doing?
--edit
gaah it's not even only freshmen! now it's people from 6 fellowships in the community center with upperclassmen too... God, why'd that email have to be sent out without us knowing about it? Why me?? don't You know how messed up i am? don't You know that i'm not nearly enough ready to lead something this big? i've only been at this school for two months.... sigh... oh Daddy.