it'll take time
[thank you for sending this song to me :)]
paul, are you confused? are you absolutely sure you know what you're talking? it seems like you contradict yourself a lot in ephesians and titus and romans and when you were in that jail with Silas. it feels like that time after lunch at winter camp. gently surprised and overwhelmed, but in a good way.
..... maybe this is something bigger and greater than we can all understand. God's a pretty big thing, paul... but you knew that already :)